Playing Hard to Get
March 22, 2011 § Leave a comment
Much like the process of quitting smoking, starting again with eating habits takes a while. Having made the decision to change, it takes days, weeks, endless hours, minutes and seconds, to live through the same frustrating actions in the knowledge that they are wrong before finally something shifts.
In the past couple of weeks Spring has started to rear its head out of hibernation and my motivation has been woken by the chinks of light let through. For a long time, there has been a long way to go. I’ve not been moving, not been eating right, not been doing the things I know make a difference…and wondering why it’s not been clicking into place.
Slowly, those things are coming together. The knowledge that I can’t power through on the wrong energy. Padding things out to protect myself is less and less appealing.
But slowly. There’s a lot that needs recalibrating. The craving for something better than a craving is, at least, growing.
In the meantime, there’s a lot to be said for some irrelevant advice:
IF YOU FIND YOURSELF PLAYING HARD TO GET, DON’T PRETEND TO BE BUSY. JUST BE BUSY.
So that’s what I’m trying to do when those cravings come calling. Sometimes, just sometimes, I can convince them I’m not home.