April 24, 2011 § Leave a comment
Seeing clearly is always a problem. Reading around is a double-edged thing, sometimes it’s a focus and a magnification and a crystalisation. Sometimes it’s a lead down a damaging path in someone else’s territory. I’m still scared of writing for that reason, among many others.
There aren’t a lot of things that are coming to me at the right moment- that elusive blink-of-an-eye when you can still change your actions- but one thing, probably the most crucial thing, that is finally coming through, is that that moment is at least a choice. I may still be choosing badly most of the time, but I’m starting to remember that this isn’t the only option. Which, in itself, is such a relief.
Still, it’s worth having something to focus on, when you can’t see what’s in front of you. I’m re-drawing my rules and trying to keep open to trying some new things out. Let’s face it, what I’ve already tried isn’t working so well.
But before I get to the rulebook, it’s worth remembering that everything looks just as it should, if only you can tune into it.